It always impresses me that this author can pen such memorable characters in her stories that it doesn’t matter what genre she’s writing in, I am still mesmerized by the story. I am not a ardent fan of first-person stories, and it’s been some time since I was personally experiencing all of the angst and drama that is associated with the college years, yet I connect with the characters and experience their emotional highs and lows right along with them.
I love that there are multiple levels of bigotry and misconceptions addressed in this story, even as I ache at the fact that the scenarios described are still very relevant to our society today. There are so many beautiful passages in this emotional tale that shares the fallout from violence, both at home and in war, but I savor the journey that leads to the realization…”I understand what it means to find someone who fits you and what it means to love them no matter what. I understand what it feels like when someone loves you for who you are. Not who they want you to be.” After all, isn’t that what all of us want? Someone who ‘gets’ us and accepts us just as we are, while supporting us in our attempts to improve.
Just as in this author’s other stories, things are not tied up with a tidy bow at the end, because these people are a work in progress, just as we all are. The realism and emotional impact of these stories is such that I remember them long after I have read them and look forward to seeing these characters again in their journey, just as I would like to know more about how Beth and Noah are doing after their trials in “Before I Fall”. This was a touching and emotional read that reminds us of the price we pay for violence and I am anxious to read more by this talented author.
“Break My Fall” by Jessica Scott is a contemporary military new adult story that is part of the ‘Falling’ series and features Josh Douglas, who has come home from the Army and is attending college, but still has many issues to cope with left over from his time at war. He forms a connection with a young woman named Abby Hilliard who has her own pressures to deal with while attending the exclusive college. Each has scars from the past that define the present, and their attendance in a class on violence brings up issues that are all too relevant to them, complicating the attraction they feel for each other. The struggle to get past the fear and search for a solution other than violence to deal with past demons may be almost impossible until each can trust the other enough to let down their walls, and that may never happen.
Violence. I'm addicted to it. It's how I feel alive. It's the only thing that's real any more.
And now I have to sit around and discuss it like it's physics or calculus. I can't do it. I can't pretend that it's some sterile academic topic. Violence isn't sterile. It isn't calm. It's pulsing. It's alive.
It's my drug.
Until I met Abby, I never wanted anything beyond the next fight. Never considered that I might finally find a way back to the land of the living.
Now? Now I find myself dreaming of a woman with golden eyes.
But I can never be with her. Because I am not whole. And I never will be again.
But I cannot stay away.
And loving her might finally be what breaks me.