This is an emotional tale of a woman’s growth and search for herself after her children have grown up and moved out of the house. Alena Conner is realizing more and more clearly each day, that her husband treats her indifferently and what once used to be enough is no longer enough for her.

Many years playing the part of faithful Christian mother and wife have left Alena wondering who she really is when she happens upon a porn site and enjoys talking and meeting new people with similar fantasies. It all begins with a pair of red stiletto shoes and a new outlook on her life and what she gave up so many years ago when she married her high school sweetheart.

As the reader accompanies Alena on her personal re-discovery, it is very easy to go through the emotional roller coaster with this evolving character. You feel the rejection and indifference from her husband as if it were directed at you. The reader also learns to live through Alena’s eyes and see her perspective as she goes out on her own and tries new things, no matter how scared she may be of that change.

After finishing this story, you will still be thinking about the characters long after reading the conclusion. I almost want to see where Alena goes from here. Will there be another installment updating Alena’s continuing growth, I certainly hope to hear more from this endearing character as well as this gripping author.

When Alena Conner discovers an interactive nude model chat room, she finds a new best friend, Tony, who becomes her teacher, guide and confidant. He broadens her horizons, exposing her to a new world of gay lifestyles, music, and pornography. Alena lives vicariously through his dates with men and cyber-sex at the nude models' web site.

With Tony as her mentor, she gains the courage to leave her family ranch and aloof husband, return to graduate school at The University of Kansas and enter the dating scene. Could she find a man who will appreciate her for the dynamic, sexual woman she has become? Will she want to give up the benefits of being a Playgirl?